I am AKAP

He gives when I least expect it. I believe. I distance myself from things that aren't healthy for me, you know what I mean. I burn bridges if necessary. From that space, I'll realize what I am missing and that thing, was meant to be missed. That'd make me think twice. Yes. People lose a thing to find the real thing. It doesn't happen all the time, but if it does, to you, you're lucky. They say, "not everything you lose is a loss." But still. That is it. They steal. They may take everything from me, if I'll let them. But I won't. I do save something for myself. I open my eyes and clear my mind.  I saw it. Felt it. Someone's trying to get my attention. And I will let him I wonder I didn't expect it so He gave it. That means, it is something, I mean, he is. ❤

Where do broken hearts go? Pinoys will always answer, "sa Sagada!" What's new? haha I should say that not everyone who goes there has a broken heart. Yung iba, broke lang talaga. HAHAHA. Break ko bones niyo, you want? HAHAHAAHH kbye This is one on my list. I am glad to see its beauty. Though the weather was not that good (so, I didn't see the sea of clouds) and the locals just harvested their crops (so, I was not able to see the perfect rice terraces). It was fine, yeah, it was REAAAAALLY fine. :(: I'll be visiting Sagada again, I guess. HAHAHA October might not be the month to go there. just saying :) Transportation: (Manila - Baguio - Sagada) Pasay Victory Liner - Baguio VL (460 pesos) Baguio VL to Besao Sagada Bontoc Terminal (51 pesos via cab) Baguio to Sagada (220 pesos via bus) ONE WAY: 731 pesos ROUND TRIP: 1,462 pesos We stayed at Sagada Guest House & Resto or Cafe (Whatever you call it haha) 1,050 per night for 3pax wi...

I've been reading articles and tweets about anxiety and self- harm. It's so sad and bad that some people suffer from depression. I wish to send them kisses and the tightest hug that I can give. I know it's not easy to handle such problems but God is always here for us. If you don't find anyone to talk to, do reach out to him. He will listen. Keep a good support system, be with friends and family. In an article, it says   "Self-harm can often be an expression of a deeper problem, which is why early intervention services to support these children are vital. Without this, the consequences really can be a matter of life or death."   Do something about what makes you sad. If you feel like everyone has turned their back on you, don't give up. Make an effort for them to face you again. Better yourself. We shouldn't embrace life's misery. Even if you have a good support system but you do not do anything to help yourself, everything will be worthless....

Why do people give up? We usually ask ourselves why when we're done giving up. Shouldn't we question, why should we hold on? It's not simple, I know. Once we know what our worth is, asking ourselves "why?" won't be necessary.  1. We care too much and others don't. - It should always be fair, they say. Give and show the love you're receiving. Mirror what your partner does, yes. But not at all times, that's when communication takes place, compromising is the key.  2. Effort isn't appreciated. Don't get me wrong, we're not saying that we count what we give and you don't. However, simple things also need to be noticed. A little gesture, thanks or even a high- five for a job well done work, as always. 3. They know what they deserve. - And you should know yours too. You're not getting any younger. Fix yourself. What do you want in life? If you want to make it work, show that it is you who he/she deserves. 4.  Standa...

I hate and like you.  It's like I want to throw you off a cliff and then rush to the bottom to catch you and then stab you in the face, say sorry and cry.

June 17, 2017 Saturday I spent a day with the children in Chosen Children Village, Silang Cavite. I used to attend such programs back in college, nursing days. Where & when we fed and played with children (with different health conditions). It always feels great to help and make people happy, especially the young ones. Last summer, I decided to spend my birthday in one of the charities in Cavite or Las Piñas City. However, I wasn't able to get the date I wanted and because of the other circumstances. I felt bad not to pursue that plan, so I went there, together with 2 of my close friends. I saw how beautiful the place is and realized that there are STILL, REALLY, good people in the world. The staff are very friendly, they call each other MAMA and PAPA. It is a picture of a big happy family, maybe not by blood, but a family by heart. There are children with down syndrome who play with others, no discrimination. They always wear smiles in their faces. Everything is very li...

Last night, yeah, last night, I guess. Hmmm or maybe weeks ago. I've thought that maybe, just maybe, I need some changes in life. But then again, I still cannot figure out when and how to start. I wanted a new job. I got one and I thank God for that. Who am I to complain? I finished school while working for 3 companies. I didn't know how I did that, but yes. School's over and I can finally take my LET . BUT then again, why do I have this feeling that maybe, just maybe, that isn't for me. Why can't I have an exact answer? What do you like, Ana? I am so confused and it kills me and those tiny brain cells. I said, I just want to live life the way I want but I do not know exactly what I really want. I am not sure if it's a serious matter or what, I feel like I need someone to counsel me and just open my eye. I don't know. I have nothing to be stressed and scared of and I am damn sure of that. Contentment, I guess. That is missing. He already put everything o...