I am AKAP

I've been waiting for quite some time now. Waiting for the one. The one who'll be with me for the rest of my life. Some people say "it's tiring", but for me, it's not. I will never get tired of loving and waiting. I do believe in serendipity. There's one person who'll we meet unexpectedly and will stay with us forever. Yes, FOREVER. I think I found mine. I'm not sure but I think he's the one. I may not be the one for him, but for me he's my one. (*Selfish here lol*) He's away. *thousand miles away* It makes it more difficult for me to show what I feel. (I always say I miss you and I love you, that's the only thing that I can do, for now.) All I know is he's special and he deserves to be loved. I want to take care of him. How I wish he'll say "Stop waiting, cause I'm here". Then, I'll stop and be his happily ever after. "LOVE IS WAITING" by: Brooke Fraser https://www....

People say friendship doesn't have a break up. Friends argue and sometimes hate and criticize each other but at the end of the day, they're still friends. It is a life- long commitment. We may have different circle of friends, and that's normal. It's cool to have a lot of friends but it's cooler if the friends that you have are true. How do we know if friends are real or fake? (It's difficult to explain how *kbye*) Let me tell you this, it is not about the length of time that you guys have been friends. The bottles of beer that you've shared, the numbers of bars that you've visited, beaches that you've taken pictures of, those sleepovers, shopping and barhopping. It's about who has been there with/for you when you're down and broken.  Those people who never left you when you had nothing, when you needed some advice, money, love and other drugs (*just kidding*) Know who your real friends are. Keep them because you cannot have ...

I always wanted to have a fairytale-like love story. (I think everyone does.) I wanted to have that so-called- prince charming who would make me feel like a princess (not literally). Someone who will treat me right, fight for our love and be my forever. WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU? Were you trapped in a tree or something?  (lol) I would wait even if it takes forever. I would never rush things in finding the one (my only one). I will keep waiting until the right time comes.  Thinking of my own fairytale excites me.

There are times in our lives where in we have to quit, stop or give up (*swallowing*, yes, we sometimes need to give up for us to move on & to have something better). It doesn't mean that we are weak. We just get to realize how to make things right especially if it doesn't make sense anymore, if it's not working, if we're not happy or if nobody appreciates what we're doing. Last week was a hell week for me. I gave up my career and someone really special. I can't explain why I did it, how or WHY? (again.) After 4 days, everything sinks in to me. Whew! Was my decision right? I DON'T KNOW. I miss going to the hospital and I miss him.  Thinking about them, ignoring and acting that they don't care make it worse. It's more difficult and painful for me. I don't know what to do. Should I reach out and talk to them? I can't even talk to my PRIDE though. (Ohh why am I a Gemini?) Anyway, I did try, a little but I think it wasn't enough.  ...

He knows when to make me smile and piss off at the same time. I still smile when I'm mad.  This man is driving me crazy, really.

Have you ever been so attached to someone who doesn't like you? Have you ever been in love to someone who doesn't care about your feelings? Have you ever been treated like a crap by someone you truly love? Have you ever been cheated on by someone you thought you'll be with for the rest of your life? Have you ever been taken for granted? Have you ever been physically hurt by your partner? Have you and your feelings have been torn apart? If yes. What did you do to take away all the pain? How did you cope up? Where did you get all the strengths to keep fighting and living? I am with you. I've been through that. Except for the (physical abuse part :))  I must say that with all those struggles, I won't be what I am right now. I am stronger now. I can stand on my own, I can fight for what I believe in, my values. People say that "The best lessons are learned through pain" or "Feel the pain until it hurts no more". All I can say is,...

Long distance relationship is not that easy. You guys will sometimes run out of words to say. So, it's better if you have your own playlist. Play songs or sing them instead. Let me share our playlist.. I once asked him what his favorite fairytale is. He said Aladdin. Then, we started singing "A whole new world" . (Simple as that lol)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kl4hJ4j48s  Ooh, ah Oh no, yeah Hmm, yeah I can show you the world Shining, shimmering, splendid Tell me, princess Now when did you last let your heart decide? I can open your eyes Take you wonder by wonder Over, sideways and under On a magic carpet ride A whole new world A new fantastic point of view No one could tell us no Or where to go Or say we're only dreaming A whole new world (Don't you dare close your eyes) A dazzling place I never knew (Hold your breath, it gets better) But when I'm way up here It's crystal clear That now I'm in a whole new world with you Ooh, new wo...